It has been 7 years since I last held you. 7 years since I kissed your beautiful face. But today means so much more than 7 years since that hospital room….
It’s 7 years of learning to live WITH you… not without you.
Your physical being may not be here, but you are in all I do. You have taught me to live with purpose. You have taught me to be compassionate and vulnerable.
I am very aware that I am not the only one missing a loved one and that tragedy does not pick favorites. I have learned to live with the tragedy of your death by letting the world see the wonderful love you taught me. For you, I am forever grateful.
I am grateful for the connections I have made with others going through difficult times- there is nothing more honest and beautiful than grief. Thank you to all of the people who have gotten me to this point. Thank you, Noelle, for sending them my way.
I am so grateful I held you. So grateful I kissed you. So grateful to be your mother. One day, I will hold you again. Until then, I'll keep looking for signs and keep spreading your light. You are my sunshine, my love.
Eat lots of cake and look out for our lantern tonight. ❤️
I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart… always.
Xoxo Mommy