Dear Aubrey,
As I approach my first Mothers Day without you by my side, I want to say thank you. Thank you for making me a mommy, and most importantly, yours. Thank you for leading me down this journey of learning who I really am, and what I am capable of. Through being your mom, I have learned how blessed I am to have the support system I have, and the little things that once went unnoticed that have the ability to bring joy, are now clear. Parenthood has taught me what true love and partnership is with your daddy.
Thank you for always being with me, showing me the signs that you know I am always looking for, and most importantly, making sure I know that I am never alone. The raes of sun you shine on me, the birds that fly past when I need them the most, the deer every time I am visiting you at your grave; thank you for making me aware of how powerful the relationship between a mother and daughter really is.
I want to tell you I am sorry. I am sorry I didn’t get you here safely, that I didn’t know that something was wrong. I am so sorry if I did anything that could have prevented this from happening. I hope you know, which I believe you do, that I loved every second of time we got to spend together. I know that you loved it, too.
On my first Mothers Day as your mama, I imagine you floating above, smiling as you are watching over me. I know I am making you proud, and I want you to know that I will stop at nothing to keep your legacy alive. We will continue to be a team until the end of time, and I cannot wait to celebrate all of our accomplishments together one day in Heaven. I cannot wait to rock you and hold you close, and thank you with sweet kisses, for everything you have allowed me to do in your honor.
You are a fierce little spirit who I am so proud of, and I want you to know that I would go through this all again just to be able to spend another second with you.
I love you infinitely,
Mommy <3
